A message for messy creators
First of all. I am not a creator. Don’t get me wrong. I am - in the widest and deepest sense, we are all creators. But! On the soul-guild level, I am a channeller, light-bringer, illuminator, messenger, and translator. I allow the life energy, the creative energy and the message to dance through me, and I translate this into words, messages, profound understanding and paths of healing.
But, as same as the creators and initiators of this world, my natural state is a messy flow. I am not the structured one in my natural abilities. Inspiration can flow through me at any given time, and holding on to activities like cooking, eating, and sleeping is as hard for me as it is for a fish to breathe without water.
Now. When I translate this to business and nowadays culture of instant sharing and instant gratification - it becomes way more mess than I can handle. I can’t relax in the creative channelling dance and flow anymore, I become overwhelmed and run away (into books and stories, in my case). And pretty soon, I find myself to be a fish who is drowning.
So. At one point, I decided that I needed help. With structure. I hired a coach to help me build some systems into my mess. It scared me to death. I literally spent a night puking before our first “get to know each other call”. Then I spent 2 weeks in books, barely able to face the debilitating fear of being bound into the structure and what it would do to me. Instead of letting it do whatever it would, I decided to kill myself before giving myself an honest and gentle chance to explore it. Our time together hadn’t even begun. And I was already itchy all over.
But! As always. One of my eyes was peeking out. Learning. Listening. Carving a new path through fear. Making myself go through webinars on creating marketing and business structure as a background sound to cooking and writing…And when I was finally ready, and I allowed myself to really put down some days ahead of time when something will be published and released into the world, and I threw myself (finally!!) back into creative flow and process, it felt clear, focused and inspiring. I published nothing (almost). I simply created (channelled) and scheduled, created (channelled) and scheduled and draw connections and put down new ideas, scratched through old ones that didn’t flow and simplified. And then, when I woke up the next morning, I felt… free.
It was suddenly clear what structure was bringing to the table. Freedom. When we don’t feel the need for instant feedback and gratification all the time, we can be in the wonderfully fulfilling and dancing creative flow most of the time. And this! Feels like t r u e freedom.
I always knew that I needed to learn to handle social media and the whole social scene in general in ways that would work for me. I just didn’t know how to tap into what “feels like me” in this area before. Sharing my life as I go along (equivalent to small talk in the real world...)? Not the thing, really. Don’t get me wrong, even though I’m a magnificent person, my message, the core of it, is not about me. It’s about you and the pathway to the magical and meaningful beyond the mundane and ordinary. Creating meaningful content drawn from the life and the work I do that will give insights, lead into connections and inspire? Show you the path? Yes. I always thought that structure was the thing that creates tension and pressure, but it wasn’t. The tension came from the urgency. The energy doesn’t lessen when we give it time and a container. It matures like good wine and cheese. And now this beautiful mess (read: dance) can flow into simple structure, that will take care of it, hold it, love it and share it.
And I? I am free.
Hi! I’m IIDALA, aka Iida-Leena Materasu, and I’m a professional therapist, writer, spiritual guide, mother, woman, and human being, who has walked the path of healing for more than 20 years. I facilitate breathwork and nondual healing groups, offer courses, subscription programs, and silent nature hikes as well as receive clients one-on-one live and via zoom. To book a session or get more info on NONDUAL courses or programs, feel free to explore the website or contact me directly.