Allowing Life to humble me
Embarrassing things. Things I am not good at. Being incompetent at something or not completing a task. Taking back my words or saying “I’m sorry, I was wrong”. Falling ill, making a mess, or saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. That happens.
The truth is, it’s not always a good thing to “be on top of things”. When our ego detects a danger (where there is none) and is holding on to the steering wheel like a crazy person (which it is) or even when it’s subtly directing us off the path, we will get a reminder from Life to step down and allow Love to take over. We might not always like the reminder, but Life doesn’t care about likes and dislikes much. It operates in the realm of Love that has no opposites.
An accident or an illness might just be Life’s way of telling us that we need to surrender and return to simple gratitude, following the guidance step by step, breath by breath and melting ourselves into service (giving) or listening and receiving mode for a while. Feeling free in not having an opinion and allowing ourselves to heal, regenerate and learn.
There is no point in soldiering on when our compass is not pointing to the True North. And ego’s compass never is. In fact, ego’s compass is always pointing towards bigger tension and conflict down the road.
I’ve made it my personal practice to welcome every humbling experience in my life with open arms as I know it is simply Love doing its thing and redirecting me: be it a miscalculation, a mess, a failure, a misfortune, an illness or an accident. Be it shame or guilt, or frustration that surfaces through those experiences. I allow it all to humble me and allow my ego to shrink. That’s a good thing! We don’t always know what’s best for us.
I am a student of Love, a walker of the Path. I am not the one who created the Path or set the curriculum. In order to be of the greatest benefit to myself and others, I need to stay teachable, flexible, transformable. I need to be wrong from time to time to reconnect with the truth and not fall asleep inside an illusion.
And! I need my children to see me like that as well. I need them to understand that I am a human being and I’m learning - we all are. Being in gratitude over simple things or for no reason at all is healing to myself, to my kids and to our relationship.
Hi! I’m IIDALA aka Iida-Leena Materasu ,and I’m a professional therapist, writer, spiritual mentor, mother, woman, and human being, who has walked the path of healing for more than 20 years. I facilitate breathwork and nondual healing groups, offer courses, subscription programs, and silent nature hikes as well as receive clients one-on-one live and via zoom. To book a session or get more info on NONDUAL courses or programs, feel free to explore the website or contact me directly.